Changes

So this is a picture of me last week.  I weigh 65 pounds less than I did in Sept. of 2007.  I can walk, sleep without pain pills, bend over without1 screaming and occasionally burst out laughing.  The red line you see on my neck is a scar from the surgery that allowed me to do all this

My whole life has changed and my whole attitude towards life has also changed.  I am trying hard to be more understanding of people.  I am trying hard to be more gentle to people.  I am trying hard to stop every day for a few minutes and think of all the things I am grateful for.  I am trying to enjoy and understand all these changes.  The hardest one seems to be understanding aging.

I don't really feel all that different, less energy, more work.  Fewer hormonal reactions to men, more hormonal reactions to everyone else.  More wisdom on one side, less patience on the other.  I wonder what's going to happen next.  I'm at a place where I know major decisions will be coming soon.  I am trying to look over all my possibilities and to decide what my next steps in life will be.  I think we are all at the point during every part of our lives, sometimes we just aren't aware of it.  Maybe the wisdom involved in getting older is that you are more aware of things.  Life isn't just happening to many of us anymore.  We are making choices and decisions with some knowledge behind them, some experience.

It's the thing I'm thinking about this lovely day.  It's what I will dwell on, if you will, mull, muse, turn over, and examine from every view point.  It's the next big thing coming and I'm going to put some thought into this next stage of my life!